Last month I ended a 16 year relationship….. with my breast implants.
Have you ever stayed in a relationship that deep down you knew wasn’t good for you? Maybe there were toxic patterns or it felt one sided? Or maybe you knew it was time for it to end but it just felt really scary to move on….
Removing my implants was like ending a relationship. Some things just reach an ending, whether we feel ready or not. Sometimes it’s peaceful. Sometimes it’s emotional. Sometimes it’s all of the above.
And we had so much fun. Fun outfits, feeling sexy and feminine and curvy. Never having to worry about filling out clothes with built in cups and allll of the things.
AND even with all the fun and all the love (because I loved them with a capital L-O-V-E) I knew it was time for our relationship to end.
They no longer were in alignment with me, my body, my health or my energy. Over the last few years my body got very loud. I had over 15 different symptoms.
- Chronic shortness of breath
- Anxiety/ depression
- Hormone issues
- Gut issues
- Chronic fatigue
- Hair loss
- Dry eyes so bad they feel like they are on fire and I couldn’t wear my contacts
- Mood swings (0-full blown rage mode in 0.2 sec)
- Neck pain
- Weight gain
- Heart palpitations
- Joint paint
- Brain fog
- Muscle twitching
- And let’s not forget the MOLD and staph that were inside both of them.
When our bodies are in survival mode and are filled with sludge and it’s just trying to get through the day and keep us alive there is no room in our bodies for our soul. Our divine channel is staticky and noisy and information cannot get through.
Now I get to start a whole new relationship with myself, my body and my divine channel. My symptoms have either gone away completely or are getting better daily. I know with every fiber of my being that I made the right choice.
I’ve never felt more grounded in my life. Grounded in my body. Grounded in who I am. Grounded in my own intuition and knowing. And when I look in the mirror I really see ME.
I hope you know by now that I am an open book. So if you have questions or wanna know more about my experience I am here for you. My DMs are always open.
Also- please let me be VERY clear… this is MY story. There is no blame, shame or judgment here. You get to do whatever you want with your body. This is what I’ve experienced with mine. I share it because someone else sharing their story helped me connect dots that felt so far apart and I’m grateful.
I see you. I hear you. I love you.